Forgive me as I fall behind... by #GonzoLecture

Life progresses, as we grow, and the seasons change, in time’s full flow. As we age and jade, the freshness fades, expectations change and decay creeps in. The learning, through bitter times of loss, teach us to savour the brightness of what we have now, long before it leaves and becomes periods that we lived, and people and pleasures we once had, and shared. The gratitude of each moment lived, must be captured, seen, felt and experienced, committed to work, and memorised, with its meaning reflected, preserved, intact.

Rageful repentance...

Have to talk about my impatient temper. For years, I've let people have both barrels between the eyes, just because I changed something that they were saying, into something that was, instead, about me & this made me feel a certain way, so I let rip.

Only recently, as I've been working in an environment that won't condone it, I've had to really look at this, and only now come to really reconsider it as an effective, or ethical communication strategy.

As I do this, from a point that started from the need for basic, economic pragmatism, I've quickly acquired new approaches.

The tendency of me to make,
everything in the universe, all about me, is a terrifyingly dominant trait, that mostly ruins everything.

Also, to try to face & understand this core problem, is like Be-elzebub trying to cast out himself.

I'm still working on this, meantime.